During my few years in Haiti, I lost myself.
I lost myself in the best sort of way and in the worst sort of way.
1 year + out I can see the immense fruit of that season , death and re-birth, and am so thankful for the healing sabbatical I took after leaving Haiti.
The losing and finding myself was painful, brutal, and a Holy process of tilling the soil of my soul. To be clear, I didn’t have much choice. The choice is: look inside or become incredibly hardened, cynical, and bitter from the pains and traumas that accumulate (in an accelerated fashion) overseas.
Saying yes to moving to Haiti was saying yes to splitting my heart wide open and taking a deep look around… but I didn’t know that at the time.
I was faced with my own privilege, biases, worldview, faith, and understanding of God. In the midst of my fight for healthcare for the poor, I denied myself over and over again. Read More
I wrote this blog in an attempt to get honest with myself and the anxiety I’m carrying inside.
I head to Haiti in less than 2 days. Haiti holds so much for me - memories, anxiety, laughter, joy, pain, a short lifetime of experiences. I am so thankful for the many ways my time in Haiti changed me and I’m so thankful for the opportunity to go back. Read More
Ever felt crushed or broken in spirit?
What if the crushing wasn’t a result of your own doing but someone else’s? Or maybe just the messed up world we live in? What does God have to say about that?
Please pass along to someone you think it might speak to! Read More
Here we are: January, 2019.
What. The. Heck.
Maybe some of you are thrilled the holidays are over and ready to get back into a routine. Maybe you want to go back and relive every moment of the Holidays all over again… okay, well most moments.
So, January. Here we are. An invisible page is turned and all the sudden we should have goals and resolutions and it’s a new year and all the things.
I love how Emily P Freeman says ‘Dear new year, be gentle with us, we pray’ in her Blessing for the New Year.
Simplicity is attractive, and yet, so very counter-cultural. I drive down the countryside of Indiana and note the piles of trash parked on the side of the road. We just ended the season in America marked by excess; it still overwhelms me compared to life in Haiti.
So as we seek simplicity in life, soul, and space, here are a few suggestions to declutter your life and mind: Read More
This week I finally bought a new pair of tennis shoes. I’m chronically indecisive, especially when buying a new pair of tennis shoes…online. I bought a pair and returned them (#America). I looked and looked and looked some more, called, ordered, changed my mind last minute, and finalized my order.
The shoes arrived right to my front door. The wonders of two-day shipping. The conveniences of America. I opened the box and tried them on.
With my new shoes on, I am in the therapy room in the clinic in Onaville, Haiti with Madamoiselle Pascal. I’m back in the heat of Haiti, sweating in that sunny room with one of my favorite patients turned friend. I gave her a pair of my tennis shoes that I had brought to Haiti because I wanted her to have supportive footwear and I really needed her to wear her ankle foot orthosis to keep her dropping right foot in a dorsiflexed position. Read More
On my first trip to Haiti in May of 2015, this picture was taken. It makes me cringe and want to cry and laugh. A 26 year old physical therapist living in Dallas, desperate to pursue this life-long dream of missions. I had been seeking out opportunities for months and months and had been denied, wait-listed, and had scheduling conflicts. Finally, I got to go to Haiti. Read More
A year ago today, I moved back to the US from my home in Haiti.
Here are a few thoughts on what I’ve learned in the past year of transition. Read More
Is a liar
Fear creeps in whispering you are not enough
You should figure your life out now
You are wasting time
When will the other shoe drop?
Fear is oppressive
When it links arms with shame, together they aim to take you out
There are days when fear wins, when its voice is the loudest
On other, sunnier days, the winners are vulnerability,bravery, and presence.
Calm and meditation push back the anxiety. Read More
“There’s an epidemic in a small port town in Haiti called White Savior-itis and it’s killing all the families in a 3 mile radius.”
- a friend working in said community Read More
At God’s table there is room
Room for you and room for me
Room for difference and disagreement
Room for the outcast and the foreigner
Room for the child, the woman, the elder
Room for the man and boy
Room for the ‘gay’ and ‘straight’
Room for the criminal Read More